Mixed Up

Today has been hard (god, I feel I start half my posts with those words - but getting out my difficult feelings is why I started re-blogging). Mike and I have had some email exchanges that have shaken me up. Yes, we had problems, but there were a lot of wonderful things about our relationship. And I can't help but think about those daily, while it seems as if he has blocked those out completely. I used to say that he was the pessimist and I was the optimist - and I guess we're each coping that way.

So hard. And so sad. Today I just feel like crying for my loss.